I have always been one to easily dismiss such silly thoughts from my head. I have more or less always been confident that things will work out eventually (whenever I am caught up in a bad situation or something like that)...
But this morning..
It hit me..
What if I'm a bad mother? What if I look stupid holding my OWN baby? What if my baby doesn't even want to be comforted by me? What if I do EVERYTHING wrong?
You see, I have not been surrounded by babies from really close families that much. Even if I am.. I would not be 100% attentive.. Why? Probably fearing that I might do something wrong..
But lately I noticed.. I have been quite reluctant to say the least when asked to hold another baby.. especially when he/she starts crying then.. I guess the fear is just slowly creeping in without me realising it..
OMG.. I've read somewhere (among the numerous books that I've been given to read!) that such feelings are normal..
Everyone wishes to be supermom.. I was once confident that when it comes to my own baby, I would AUTOMATICALLY know what to do.. It will naturally come to me.. bla2..
Now.. I'm in doubt..
Oh dear God..
Instagram (@NHomeBakes)
Friday, 25 September 2009
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
5 comments:
NO!! everyone gets nervous when doing something for the first time.. but practice makes perfect..i'm sure not alot of people get everything right the first day their baby's born..but the second day, third and so on can only get better..and seeing that you're already panicking now kinda shows you'll be extra careful with your child..and in case of anything you've got your right hand man, YAS! No Fear!! lotsa prayers for you and your baby..
don't worry natte, when the time comes, u will know what to do. mother knows best :)
Thanx guys! hehe hopefully I'll be SUPERMOM when u see me next insyaAllah :P Yas dah volunteer nak 'jage' malam! hahaha we'll see how that goes ;)
For now.. I'm just surrounding myself with loads of these prenatal books :P JUST IN CASE! haha you can never know enough!
Seconding Faezah up there :)
You'll do great Natte, InsyaAllah. Automatically your 'mother's instincts' will come into play punye! Don't worry too much otays?
I used to fear I might do something wrong too that time when I used to babysit baby Haris everyday. You just need to love them unconditionally and really, things you do for them after that would just come out right automatically :) and for that matter I had a problem parting with Haris and the whole family as Yan and Adli trusted Haris with me on my own when they were out.
You, you and Yas would make a great parent! InsyaAllah :) Will pray for you and Yas and the lil footballer heartbreaker in the making! See you soooon! Muah! xx
Awwww.. thanx dear!! Yeah, I guess 'love' really does play its part :) I just hope everything will go smooth.. until he's 18 at least! (insyaAllah) hehehehehe
But by now I think you're more experienced than me when it comes to babies! haha I seriously need to consider 'new moms for dummies' :P
Anyhoww, insyaAllah it will turn out fine.. in the meantime, can't wait to see you too!! ;) ;) xx
Post a Comment