Decisions

Guess who? haha none other la kan! :P

Someone recently told me.. "What defines you, isn't your race.. your religion, the color of your skin, the balance in your bank account, nor your family background etc..

But it's the decisions you make"..

What-if?

So on the drive back home from work that day.. I re-traced my steps..

What-if I hadn't decided to join the company and bailed, would my life be different now?
What-if I hadn't decided to apply to the university I went to, would I get the same/better results?
What-if I hadn't decided to go to London?
What-if I had decided to accept the offer to go to Germany instead? Where would I be now? (At the time, I got two offers.. to do accountancy in Germany, or law in the UK)
What-if I hadn't applied for 'law' in the first place, would I be an accountant now?
What-if I had decided to NOT go to College, would I cross paths with those dearly to me now?

What-if I hadn't been sneaky and changed from science class to arts in form 4 (much to my mother's dismay), would I be a doctor or an actuarial scientist now?
(Would I even survive being either of those two???)

What-if I hadn't decided to stop myself from falling apart, during those crucial dark times of my life, would I be the person that I am today?
What-if I had decided to run away then, or worse.... (I don't have any 'would' here... it's just inappropriate)
What-if I had decided to NOT go to TKC, would I be able to make the sane choices I did during my lowest point?

What-if I had decided to NOT run away from the boy who was chasing me on the last day of primary school, would we still be friends?

What-if I had decided to NOT move to KL, and stay in KK with my dad.. where would I be now?

......


The endless possibilities and the different scenarios kept playing in my mind the whole time.. even into my dreams. As I woke up the next morning from the nudge Aaron gave me in his sleep, I kissed him and smiled..

'What would the world be like if you hadn't come into my life?'

And then I felt better again. Dressed up for work and back into reality...