Pushh!!! Pushhh!!! (2)

So, where was I?...

Ohh yes, the labor room.. Umm, but beware that this post might contain some disgusting details.. hehe so feel free to skip through those icky stuff!!

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Well, basically when I checked in, they started me on this drip that would supposedly enhance my contractions (as if it wasn't bad enough already!) But it is claimed to help speed up the whole process.. So I succumbed :)

But the pain got so intense.. it's like... having period pains non-stop! You know, that kind that you can feel on your legs? Yeah, magnify them by a few times.. :P However, of all the times.. I suddenly caught a fever.. Sigh, time pregnant tak pernah pon nak demam? Time labor laaaaaa fever!! And it was a bad one too. Since I am allergic to penicillin, the doc decided to not risk giving me any antibiotics, and just give me panadol? Haiyooo..

Oh and before that, they actually have to help me cleannnnnnnn my 'insides'. You know, so that poop won't come out with the baby? haha now THAT was funny.. Before I continue, may I remind you that I most of time LAUGH when presented with pain? Yeah, my weird way of coping I guess..

But having them pushing some liquid stuff into my anus was indeed uncomfortable and a bit painful.. so I laughed the whole time! The nurse must have thought that Yas and I were into naughty stuff as she gave us a weirddd look the whole time I was laughing.. Sheeshhh embarrassing!!

The stuff worked!!! Within seconds after the nurse left the room, I was already racing for the loo! At first I thought it was a false alarm as the nurse did ask me to keep the liquid inside (a.k.a don't forcefully teran it out laaa) for a while for it to work. But alas, I was THAT quick! Cool stuff to take actually, if you haven't been having bowel movements for a while :P

Ok, back to the fever part.. since I was having a temperature.. The doc decided to change the drip to water I think? to help reduce my temperature.. Yess, I am jakun with all this drip stuff because believe it, I have never been admitted to the hospital.. so having them inject me with the tube initially, was WEIRDDDDD!! agak jakun and memalukan laaa coz I keep asking stupid questions about the drip and stuff.. haha the nurse must have thought that I forgot that I was in the hospital to give birth!

Pooping matters aside, then came the stupid need to pee!!! Oh dearrrrrrrr!! Once they start you on whatever drip there is.. you can't actually go to the toilet? Well, maybe you can.. but I was definitely NOT ALLOWED to! So the nurse suddenly went to take the kit to 'help' me pee... Aiyooooo!! When I saw the needle.... I shoutedddd,

"Ehhh Ehhh kak! Nak cucuk mane tu??"

Nurse: Kat sane la dik! Nak help you pee.

"Ummm... will it hurt?" (buat muke kesian... haha as-if that would make a difference!)

Nurse: A bit laa, pedih sikit je.

"Painkiller takde?"

Nurse: (checking the gas level that was attached to the wall behind me) Ohhh, it's empty la dik! I have to call maintenance.. That would take a while.. We do it without gas la ok?

"Ummm.. ok.. tak rase nak kencing dah" (Padahal I was SOOOO ready to go there and then! Even contemplated on peeing on the bed rather than being 'poked' by the stupid needle)

Both Yas and the nurse laughed.. I was furious by myself.. Hello!! Nak cucuk THERE?? Confirm I sanggup tunggu the gas.. hahaha

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Peeing with gas was a success!! Hehe.. Gosh, that was probably the first time I got soooo highhh.. that I laughed most of the time early on! Bengong! Yas was a angel to just layannnn je all my stupid kerenah throughout :)

But all of that plus my fever caused me to be soooo sleepy.. So I slept most of the time from about 10pm to 2am-ish, which was when my water broke..

Oh did I mention that I also got like TWO stupid vaginal exams in between?? I swear, if I did have the energy and not be so high at the time, I would smack the nurse and doctor's head. But the second VE wasn't that bad coz I guess the numb effect of the gas really kicked in.. although I couldnt feel the pain, I still felt UNCOMFORTABLE! Yelaaaaaaa, tangan not just masuk inside 'there' ok.. siap feel2 to measure how far dilated am I.. OMG! Hate it! Hate it!

*** Ummm.. am I deterring anyone from giving birth already?? So SORRY!***

But it was definitely quick between when my water broke and when the baby came out. When the nurse suddenly took hold of my mouthpiece for the gas, I panicked..

"Ehhh Ehhh kak!!! Nak bawa gi mane tu?" Remember, I was high.. so that came out soo sloww and very weak!

They have to take away all painkillers in order for me to be able to 'feel' when to push.. I turned to Yas.. "Ayggg, kejap boleh?? penat.. ngantuk..ehh tak ready laa.. later boleh?"

Hahahahah.. I vaguely remember Yas laughing a bit at my stupid request at that crucial time, and then sweetly assure me that everything will be ok.. "It's time"..

I think I may have inhaled a bit too many gas, as I was sooooooo sleepy to push!! My mother said that it was the nurse's fault as they didn't monitor my gas intake.. How should I know?? All I wanted was to get rid of the pain.. so if no one says no, I'll inhale the gas like my life depended on it lah!

But the nurse was soooo sweet, she reminded me to recite Bismillah everytime I push.. Remembering God the whole time did help me through.. It helped me to not fight the pain and just let it be.. But being human.. of course I still grunt at the pain! Labor pain? is like no other.. At one point I turned to Yas..

"Eiiii asal laa saye tak amik epidural ar??" hahaha That time it was probably too late to take it la kan! Nvm, I told myself.. I still want to give birth again in the future.. boleh la try other painkillers then :P

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The next thing I knew, the baby was out.. Being relatively high and soooo tired from all that pushing, (I had the most trouble getting the baby past my pelvic bone, that took quite a while).. I could barely hear the doctor when he was mentioning something about 'rantai..

I was like.. "what rantai?" And as they place Aaron in my arms (still bloody and all), I could see the 'rantai'.. A cord around his neck.. I almost panicked but was relieve when I saw that the nurse had her hand between the cord and Aaron's neck..

That moment... was bliss.. "Hello you..." was all I could mutter at the moment. It happened too quick, they took him away too soon! My gaze followed him as he was placed on the table beside me, to be cleaned..

"Why isn't he crying? Why isn't he crying?" I shouted as all I could hear from him was "Ehh Ehh Ehh'' but not full "huarghhhhhhhhhhh!!" like most babies I see in documentaries do!

I must have been so focused on Aaron that I almost didn't notice the doctor still down THERE, taking out the placenta and stitching me.. All I remember was thinking to myself, "The baby is out.. What the helllll is the doctor still doing down there? Sibuk je!" And then I remembered that I must have needed stitches.. haha but I guess my first reaction when I realised what he was doing saved me from feeling any pain as I reached straight for the gas.. !!

And before I could say more, they took Aaron away.. little did I know that his lungs were weak that he needed to be placed in the incubator straight away.. Punyela I was so mad as the nurses took him away... But as I saw Yas tailing the nurses when they left with Aaron, I was a bit relieved.. at least he'll be with him..

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Then began my emotional journey through recovery.. Aaron was safely delivered at 3.37am.. weighing 2.92 kg, height of 51 cm..

Oh my little angel..


Some would have found it weird that I still had the time and energy to update my status on F@cebook as soon as I was wheeled to my room, but it was because I was trying to stay awake for when they bring the baby to me.. But I guess I was too tired that I slept soon after..

All in all, it was such an experience.. I'm sure many new mothers out there would agree with me. No matter how hard the experience was (for some at least), once you see the baby.. all the pain just automatically goes away.. Or perhaps God just made it so that we automatically, psychologically block all that pain, cause the end is just so beautiful..

Alhamdulillah after 5 trying days in the hospital, the doc finally allowed Aaron to go home, and obviously me with him. Even though he still had signs of jaundice when we got home, constant breastmilk and morning sun exposure was all we did.. and now our baby is healthy again :)

My breastfeeding experience? Ahah! For now, alhamdulillah it's been good. I've also started building up my stash for when I return to work. But I definitely think that I may have bought the wrong pump.. and that a double hands free pump might actually be more suitable for the impatient me..


Oh more shopping then!!